so desperate to get out of my current situation or be able to influence it in any way that a huge lottery win does seem like the only answer and I feel (probably in a pathological i-hear-voices kind of way) like it might really happen.
Which is bonkers.
And the pink bits of paper agree with the bonkers.
Not even a TENNER.
Although it could just be that i'm already having my luck and I'm just to dumb to realise